Entry taken from my other site - thingsihaveneverdone.wordpress.com  

Windows down. Music up. I sped down the highway on this absolutely picturesque day. Clear blue skies, the sun was hot, the breeze was cool, the day in which all nice days were spawned from.

My destination was an hour away. Soon I'd be with friends, fulfilling a promise I made so many months ago. My friends had come to me one evening out, to ask if I would be willing to document their recent pregnancy. I was a bit hesitant at first, as I usually am when it comes to something like this, but they reassured me that it was me they wanted.

The city stood in the distance. Bit of traffic, but not bad. 676 is usually backed up. "It'll clear up soon..."

Oh how wrong I was.

A mix of idiotic rubbernecking and just the general assholery of I-95, set me back almost TWO and a half hours. I did, however, get to dance my caramelldansen and sing in my terrible opera voice, which is usually the custom when stuck in traffic.

(it was like this ALL the way up)

I hate making people wait on me, but my traffic rage was quickly extinguished when I saw my friends. First time I've been to their apartment (Check!)

We brainstormed for a bit, tossing around ideas and forming some new ones before we made our way outside.

A tad bit nervous. Which is to be expected when attempting to capture such an occasion, I suppose. But we had fun with it! I think they'll be happy with the photos. I did get that involuntary "awwww yeah!" smile quite a bit. That moment when you KNOW you've just taken a great photo? :P

Afterward they invited me out to dinner, their treat. My escapism was attempting to steal the moment and send me scurrying back home, but I told my brain to shut it and agreed. Out to dinner with friends! So this is what it's like!

Good food, even better company. I love ending a evening to an awaiting warm summer night.

Eat at the Landmark in West Chester

It's a good thing we didn't postpone like we had originally thought. Jamie gave birth last night!!!!!! Congratulations Johnny and Jamie!!!!!

Take pregnancy photos for friends

~M

Making a quick list that I'll be updating and editing as time goes on.

Passport
License
Duplicate ATM card
Phone + Charger
Laptop + Charger + Microphone
Toothbrush + toothpaste + soap + deodorant
Camera + Charger
Settlers of Catan (requested :P )
Headphones
Ipod+ Charger
Fire Fans + Extra Kevlar + Kevlar Needle + Kevlar thread
Gloves
Scarves
Red shirt (requested, cause someone is gonna make me something with it apparently. Curious)

Last night I finally did it. I finally sat down my friends and told them what has been going on in my life, and why I was unable to follow through with our previous arrangements.

This was one of the hardest things I've had to do in a very long time. I value their friendship more than any word can describe, so going up there, thinking that I was about to do something, voluntarily, that could mess that up, really had me stressing. I sat outside their house for a good half an hour before I told myself to stop being so weak and get in there. I had already backed out once, I drove up here, an hour and a half on Friday to tell them, but ended up missing the chance. (Not necessarily my fault cause they were a couple drinks in when I got there, and wanted them to be sober when I told them. But still)

I almost didn't think I was gonna be able to do it. It wasn't until I saw my window of opportunity slowly closing that I was forced into action. His gf said "Well, I'm gonna call it a night". I had to do it. Right now

As I sat before them, their figures loomed in front of me with anticipation of what I had to say. You'd think I was on trial for a murder I didn't commit. There they stood. All eyes on me.

Before I even started my voice wavered. There are 4 people I've ever told what's really going on in my life. These are 3 of them. "Keep going" I had to keep telling myself "Steel yourself" I'd say when my voice was choked out by emotion.

I let it out. All of it. Deflated but in a good way. When I ended and looked up I realized that I wasn't the only one with tears in my eyes. And almost perfectly in time they all came in and gave me a hug.

Not only did they understand completely, but they almost laughed at the fact that I thought this would ruin our friendship. His gf blinked away tears of her own, as she can completely relate to my situation. Shes been there and knows exactly how frustrating and debilitating it is to be anxious or paranoid or insecure to the degree I just described

We sat for the next couple hours just talking. Sharing. I had to smile to myself. So this is what it's like to have real friends.

"Did you honestly think I was going to hold you to that lease? That's paper. That's nothing. That means nothing. You go. You do what you have to do, you take all the time you need. We aren't going anywhere, and we'll be here when you get back"


So. It looks like I'm going down to Peru for a couple months.